My first blog. There goes my innocence.

Well here it is my first blog of probably many.  I love to talk about myself and everything around me so shutting me up will probably be a concern of mine.  Today is a great day to start a blog because I can do one of my favorite things ... rant.  I love to rant.  My favorite subjects to rant about are Steve Jobs, Religion and Hollywood.  Today my rant is about over privileged Actors and Actresses and basic famous  people who get things like book deals that they do not deserve.  I would kill for a book deal and today on perezhilton.com I see that Kendra Wilkinson has a book out.  Its not fair but life rarely ever is.  It makes me angry that she doesn't even care that there are people like me and the people that I meet with every week that work hard and write even harder and make almost no progress.  I am also upset because there is going to be a new Buffy the Vampire Slayer that will not include Joss Whedon but will have some undeserving unqualified author who does not have the right to reinvent the series.  Although I rant it does make me depressed.  Today I made a lot of progress on my book and I backtracked a lot once I learned of the Kendra book that is out.  I was supposed to create my synopsis today so that I can write my query letter to find a literary agent instead I ended up spending my evening crying and worrying about never making it as an author.  When I see headlines about people like Kim Kardashian and Paris Hilton getting book deals it breaks my heart because some ghost writer is out there not getting any credit for writing a horrendous book about someone famous for just existing.  I am grateful that I have Amanda, my wife, by my side who understands that I am Bipolar and can switch moods at the blink of an eye at times.  Today was one of those days that set me off into the land of depression but I am on my way back now.  Some day I will become a real author just like Pinocchio became a real boy.  Some day someone will wish hard enough and there I will exist to sign books and create characters and become an eccentric.  Not that I am not already there I am pretty eccentric at times but I think becoming published and have access to disposable income I will become eccentric just for the sake of having a laugh.  I am sure that once I am out there people will look at me and tell me that I am undeserving but at least I can tell them that I wrote my own book and I didn't have to steal someone else's franchise to get my career going.  I will work hard to get where I will be and while I may not stay strong I have Amanda to lean on who is stronger than anyone I know.  Enough blogging now its time for Sims3.